Blogging from Dubai - 18th Sep

Depressed ... really depressed...

Dunno why, the feeling is overwhelming. Not very convenient to say the reason. But the overall mood is depressing. Its about 5am here in Dubai. Many people in Singapore are already up and about, readying themselves for work.

I have my plans to move to Melbourne, in time, but well, so many things are happening in Singapore right now. I see it opening up slowly but surely. Let me not be torn between this two lands, but be discerning in choosing the correct place for me to settle down.

Was at Zouk on Friday night and I really enjoyed myself there. Everyone is. That is the spirit I wanna see in people. It's just so depressing to think about it, maybe you dun follow my6 chain of thoughts...

If I move to Melbourne, I may miss the livelier party scene and music, as well as friends I would have to leave behind. If i do move over to Melbourne, I can start afresh, settle down to a new life in a place I wanna call home two years ago.

How is that so? I dunno. I just have to live the next one year first and see how things go. Really depressing to think about it. All the friends I will leave behind. All the new friends I will make over there & here. May God bring his guiding hand on me and help me choose the right path to take for my good.

Wish me luck too. Anyway, if I get killed tomorrow, I will not regret, cos I have seen with my own eyes the vastness of the world, that is too huge to be encompassed by my puny mind. I can feel the vastness of love showered upon me, and me unable to reciprocate, If I should be myself, I'll be a really selfish person, cos I only think of myself. What about the others? How much sacrifice they have made, and how much love they have showered on me to make me who I am? Why am I torn like this? So depressing ... really... I can only smile it away for it to return another day...