Reality check

There is still one year more.

One more year ... so another one year more to do a stock take on my life ...

The figures are quite depressing... I'm already 30. Can't even make a major financial decision without troubling my parents ... am I on the right track? My dad has been having problems accepting that his son has got to serve people onboard, well ... till recently, he still harbours hope that I will apply to become a pilot... Think will give that a miss... another missed opportunity ...

I harbour desires to live in melbourne, so i can't do 2 things at one time, i have to let the pilot decision go. I must convince myself that I am not abandoning everything here, in order to live my life in melbourne .. am I that selfish that I have to leave my parents here in singapore?

Well we all have but one life, and there is no time to deliberate too long on things ... sometimes we have to do what we have to do, to get to where we are right now. I admit i do harbour selfish thoughts of protecting myself in any decision. I dun think anyone will do that for me. Who will take care of me better than myself? Of course that is not to say that i will do everything at the expense of all others for myself.. I don't think i would be terribly wrong cos only if I am able to care for myself, do I have the ability to care for others ..